i still ain't over you.

lately i've been nostalgic for the times when my ears never stopped ringing, when roundtrip train tickets had nothing on gas mileage-
i guess somewhere between growing up and falling apart, i gave up on what i believed in.

"2005 was a good year for dudes with big dreams and a microphone."








and for the girls that loved them.

"Arma Angelus as an Experiment...

has failed."

even when i wasn't sure of what i wanted, i always knew you were a part of it.

i'm starting to realize what kind of friend i want to be to others, and what kind of friends i want to have. the whole concept of friendship sounds so simple, but i'm finding out that its so complex. my phonebook is full of great people, but lacking in the "great people who are also good at being good friends" category.

i guess some people don't realize what being a good friend entails until they graduate high school and get a different perspective on the world. and you know, maybe i'm one of those people, and i'm just naive in this whole thing.

but despite the whiny rant, there are six people in the world that i would do anything for, and i know they'd do the same. and with friends like that, theres really no need for people who provide a false sense of friendship and security.

i want to make this spring all about new beginnings: taking out the people in my life who weren't supposed to be there in the first place and focusing on whats important to me. and after that, summer will be perfect.

my head hates me too much to write a comprehensible entry, but this site rules.